Walking Challenge - Nope...not happening

It is just not happening.  I do not have the desire to go for a walk on a daily basis.  It is not my thing.  It used to be back in the day when I didn't belong to a gym and it was my only form of exercise, but I am stressing myself out more than I need to about not going for walks, or mentally trying to plan my schedule to see if I'll have time.  Nope.  I'm done.  I am not going to torture myself any longer.  I haven't gotten any satisfaction out of these walks.  I tried to convince myself there was some, but there wasn't.

I feel like a failure, and I shouldn't.  This was assigned to me by someone else, and its their thing...not mine.  I really tried to make it seem like something that I was going to enjoy and get something out of.  I tried to treat it like it was my idea.  I tried to make it one of my desires...and it just isn't.

So no more challenges for now.  I am going to do things that I want to do in my own time.  My life is to make myself happy, and I know I get unhappy when I start putting too much pressure on myself for the benefit of others.

I had a bit of a disagreement with a friend recently where he said "You need to decide what is important!"  What we were fighting about or who it was is besides the point.  I have decided what is important to me, and like it or not, my pursuits aren't going to be the same as other people's.  My priorities are going to be different than other people's.  My likes, dislikes, loves and passions are going to be different than other people's.  So I have decided (to myself) to list my priorities and pursuits in order of importance, and I am happy with my decisions.

Walking Challenge - Day 8, 9 and 10

Days 8 and 9 were extremely busy.  Both days I wasn't home until the wee hours (not partying either day either...how fun is that. :P) which made it way too late to go for a walk.  But I got back up on the horse today for day 10.  Then I came home, deep conditioned my hair, and practiced for the show.  Its getting closer!! Only 3 days away!!

Walking Challenge - Day 7

Today I went for a walk as soon as I got home from rehearsal.  I was already dressed in my walking-type gear, so I just dropped my show stuff and walked right out the door before I could change my mind.  I took a slightly different route, and found myself working on memorizing lyrics while I was walking after about 15 minutes...funny how that happens.  What I have focussed on the most in the past couple weeks seems to pop up constantly!!  M'eh, just gotta let my mind do what its going to do, right?

:-)

Walking Challenge - Day 6

If I don't have music in my head via headphones, I find it is still there regardless.  Maybe its the amount of music (new and old) I have been surrounded by in the last couple months, but there is always a song running through my head, be it for rehearsal, or just something that is stuck in my head and on my mind.

So for day 6, I just went down one side of Robson and back up.  I like walking at this time of night.  There are a lot less people to navigate around, but its still early enough that there are people around to make me feel safe in my surroundings.

I am still struggling with the real purpose of this.  I still don't get it.  I am constantly in my head, so why do I need to be there any more?  Its only day 6...time will tell.  Right?

Walking Challenge - Days 4 and 5

Well Day 4 was a bit difficult.  I did some walking, yes, but it was with purpose, so I almost feel as though I didn't do what I should have done.

However that all got made up for on Saturday when I took a long walk around the west end in the evening.  The weather was gorgeous!  I went at dusk, when the sun was just below the horizon, and it was still mild out.  Not too hot, not too cold - perfect weather to be walking in.  I joined the crowds on Robson and headed down to the beach.  That took me about 20 minutes, so I went down the seawall for a bit.  Then I sat and contemplated and thought.  It was nice...I really take living where I live for granted.  Then I headed back up Denman and then straight up Robson.

I still need to do my walk for today, and it is looking a bit dull and gray...but I'll get it done. :-D

Walking Challenge - Day 3

Today I took advantage of my lunch hour and used part of it do my walk.  It was good, except that I was more tempted to also run errands at the same time.  It must be my "need to be efficient" frame of mind I am usually in when I am at work.  I did pick up a cleanse which I will start tomorrow.

It was good that I ended up doing the walk on my lunch though because late in the afternoon I received a phone call from my sister saying that an impromptu dinner had been organized for the family.  It was lots of fun, the usual amount of laughter and chatter.

That is all for today. :)

Walking Challenge - Day 2

Well, I cheated a bit with the challenge today.  I had a friend with me for part of the way.  But I still got outside.  And there was no rain today!  Yay!!

Its funny how much you hear when you don't have headphones on.

Walking Challenge - Day 1

Hmm...well, I walked for half an hour.  And I did it without distraction.  But I don't feel any different.  And I even walked when it was raining!!!  Yay me for that one, because honestly you would think I was the Wicked Witch of the West with the way I react to rain.  I'm meeeellllttting, meeeeellltting, Oooh what a world!

I should also make a quick note here that this idea didn't come just from me.  It was actually an assignment from someone I know, and I don't know if I see the point of it for real yet.  I spend a whole lotta time in my head as it is...why should I just give myself more time in there?  Maybe the answer will become apparent after I've done it for a little bit.  Only time will tell. :-)