WMOC - Day 5-10

The following are daily logs I have kept on my feelings and thoughts towards weaning myself off caffeine. Enjoy!

Day 5 – September 17, 2010

I wonder what it would feel like to just go cold turkey? I don’t know if I am ready to do that though. I’m just sitting here at my desk at work and feeling as though I absolutely NEED at least one cup of coffee. Just one. There is no way I could go cold turkey today without some effect on either my physical body or my social skills. I also have plans tonight, and usually when I have plans, I try to have another coffee, tea or Red Bull. I’m scared to face the world without caffeine…either that or I am scared to think what the world is going to think of me if I don’t get my morning coffee.

So I had an interesting evening. I had a voice lesson and decided to take out a co-op car instead of bringing my guitar on the skytrain. Afterwards, when I came back downtown, the building that I was supposed to park the car in was blocked by red-tape and police tape. Fire trucks and police were everywhere. So I called the co-op and explained the situation. They couldn’t think of a solution so I did. I told them I would park the car in my building and wait it out. They were fine with this. So I went upstairs and tried to figure out what was going on and when the building might be accessible again. Thank goodness for News 1130 online!! There was a Haz-Mat crew at the old BC Hydro building at Burrard and Nelson, and of course the spill that happened was big enough to effect the adjoining building, at least until they figured out just how bad it was. So I continued on to the party I was going to, and decided I just had to be sober so that I could return the car when I got home. I updated the co-op with this information. And then I had a 355ml can of Red Bull. I had to. And I am glad I did because by the time I got home and parked the car (3 am), I was at the point where if I were just a little bit more tired, it would be as if I were a little bit inebriated. As a side note, drinking and driving is one thing and should NEVER be done. But neither should not sleeping properly and driving. Don’t drive tired!!!

Day 6 – September 18, 2010

Since I didn’t get to sleep until 4 a.m. (once I got home from parking the car (3:05 am) I decided to read in bed for a bit to unwind), I slept until 11:30. It was kind of nice. And then I stayed in bed and finished the book I couldn’t put down (I had to know if they were going to fall in love after all!!!!!!!) Finally I decided to roll out of bed and go out and grab some breakfast – I wasn’t in the mood for a bagel or oatmeal at home. So I went down to Starbucks. I had a grande caramel frappucino (I was in the mood for something cold). Turns out it only has 95mg of caffeine in it, and that is the only caffeinated thing I had all day!

Day 7 – September 19, 2010

Well I was up and at ‘em first thing in the morning on Sunday, despite being out late for a friend’s birthday. But I can’t say the same for a friend of mine who crashed at my place. Once they were finally up, we headed out to Starbucks for breakfast. I like weekends! We had a grande drip coffee which had way more caffeine, but we were gonna explore the city a bit too, so a little kick in the butt never hurts!

Day 8 – September 20, 2010

Oh wow, if ever there was a day that was a test of my will power, today was that day. I was sooooooooo “don’t-even-look-at-me-until-I’ve-had-my-coffee” this morning. And I only had one, and have survived with just one for the past 3 days. I contemplated having a cup of tea in the afternoon, but decided not to. Tomorrow, no coffee at all…

Day 9 – September 21, 2010

No coffee? Yah, sorry, not gonna happen. Not quite ready to be a tea-totaler yet. This is harder than I thought. I honestly enjoy the taste of coffee, not just the caffeine boost it gives me upon every sip. I enjoy the rich flavour, the warmth. Its like a big warm hug in the morning. Life without coffee would be misery!!!

Day 10 – September 22, 2010

I seem to be in a place where I feel stuck. I don’t like the taste of decaf coffee, at least not the ones I’ve tried. So I can’t even try to switch my coffee in the morning because it will just be disgusting and putrid and leave me in a foul mood, which I would be in anyway if I don’t drink coffee. You want the sun to shine out of my ass in the morning??!?!? I need coffee to do that.